I'm trying to describe the state I enter when I'm emotionally between two levels of existence. Already, my normal life has screeched to a halt but the away life hasn't yet arrived. Of course, I'm feeling this earlier as we're about to embark on a trip of a fairly substantial duration. This dictates there's been more to wrap up on this end as well as more unknown on the other side. I have to admit I thrive on this emotional cliff. Otherwise, I'd be forced to see life as nothing but an inevitable slide into physical and mental decrepitude.
As a couple, we're the type to do things simply because they can be done. Unlike others I see, we don't live in an enormous and profound rut. I'm proud of that. For us, experiencing life means getting out of grooves of a familiar little track.
To help me with my in-between-ness, I've uploaded some files today. I wanted to see if I could point to a specific spot in very old personal video. This was taken in India when we were touring one summer. We'd boarded a train leaving from Varnarsi. It's part of a large, unedited YouTube video that originated on a camcorder the size of a kitchen toaster. I haven't the inclination to cut and polish these scenes. As a first step, I want to get an enormous number of a/v files in a stable and share-able online format.